Bapak welcomes you and bids you good evening. Tonight Bapak is going to do some testing, which means he is going to confirm and clarify your situation in the kejiwaan field. Bapak is obliged to do some general testing, because the people present are not helpers and committee members only, but there are also some who have not been long In Subud. Besides testing with you Bapak will also give some explanations and clarifications about the significance of this testing.
Because there are so many of you present at this congress, there will not be time for Bapak to test with all of you. So Bapak would like the members who are neither helpers nor committee members to come out on to the floor. Bapak would like to start with the women.
( Testing )
You were able to feel that there is movement and life in your selves, movement and life which are not there because you will it with your hearts and minds, or what are called the nafsu. That is what Bapak was saying the day before yesterday; that besides giving human beings a heart and mind, and besides giving them nafsu which they can use to take care of their lives so long as they live in this world, God also gives them a strength within the inner self, which is called the strength of the jiwa. This is indeed really able to be in contact with or to form a connection with others of God's creatures. With the jiwa you can know and understand what the life of material objects is like and what the life of plants is like, and also the life of animals and the life of human beings.
That is why Bapak explains that you are extremely fortunate to be able to feel this life present within you. This is what is called faith, not the faith of heart end mind, but the faith of the inner self which is called iman. Thus when eventually you come to the end of your life and are living free from the influence of nafsu, when the nafsu eventually come to a stand still and you no longer remember where is the key to the safe or where your husband is and that you are his wife, when you forget both where your husband is and where your savings are, it is then that you will be filled by the knowledge and the memories that are from the jiwa, just as you were receiving just now.
Thus these movements that you receive are not because you make them, but they are movements from the inners self, which will gradually indicate your destiny and your true nature, and also the way for you to draw close to the power of God and receive the blessing of the One Almighty God. In order to verify and make clear what Bapak is saying, Bapak will test, so that you can understand it.
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If you were able to receive that, what is able to explain it and to make the connection is the jiwa. It is as Bapak explained the day before yesterday; it is the jiwa which is able to connect your inner self with the content of others.
It is clear that the latihan kejiwaan of Subud shows all the various needs of human beings. As it eventually reaches further and further and further, you become able to have a connection between your inner feeling and the messengers of God, or with the angels or with people who are already dead, so that you can feel how it is for them there after they have left this world, and so long as you live in this world you will be able to live rightly and, happily. Thus supposing you are living amongst artists, while you, yourself are not an artist, you will still be able to be happy. And the other way round, if you are amongst people who devote themselves to the worship of God, like nuns, you will be able to be happy even though you are not a nun.
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Just this part of the testing has taken an hour, brothers and sisters. So if there are four lots, it will take four hours, and Bapak will have to go on till twelve or one o'clock. Since this is not the only night for testing and there will be others, I hope you will feel satisfied enough with that.·So Bapak will end this lot of testing and start another. Now will those of you who are neither helpers nor committee members, and who have not yet been tested please come forward. If there are no more of you, Bapak would like the men to come forward now.
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That is how it is, brothers and sisters, if you want to receive the movements of your body. Sometimes when people do latihan they just stand still, because that is their latihan in accordance with their own inner selves. At that moment they need to be quiet and just stand still. But you can realize that, as Bapak just said, it is a contact from within, from the jiwa, so that it can connect the inner force and energy with something able to move more freely and energetically, like this. Some of you are rather energetic, so that you sweat much more.
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You seem to have sweated a good deal, and some of you have entirely collapsed, so Bapak will end the testing. It is indeed rather late, so Bapak will close the meeting.